Thank you all for your kind comments/e-mails regarding my anxiety problems. While I'm sad there are many of you that feel the same way, I am glad that I'm not alone. I started Lexapro about three weeks ago and things are much better. While I am still getting slightly anxious about things, I can process it and make it go away without it being overwhelming and turning into a multiple day freak out fest, which is really nice. I prefer this much more over the prozac that just made me feel like an unemotional zombie. I kind of like feeling things.
So anyway, My crafting has been back to a work in progress and as per my usual I am doing about a million things at once.
I've been embroidering more for blankets and I added a couple more designs. For some reason, I'm currently finding embroidery much more comforting than knitting. This is a weird thing for me because I usually just want mindless movement that becomes repetitive and soothing. Now, I'm finding the details in embroidery to be calming.
This is my newest design:
I've been toying with the idea of making a Bella portrait for awhile. Mainly because it is going to be my next tattoo. While a regular black and white portrait would be fine, I just had to make it crafty. And after scouring the interwebs for pictures of actual embroidered looking tattoos, (there really aren't that many) I decided that it should be the medium I use. I talked to my tattoo artist last night and he loved the idea and told me to get stitching so he can tattoo it. It's nice to have him as excited about the tattoo as me. I'm not quite sure I'm ready for the tedious four and a half hour session it will take, but I'm going to hope that the back of my shoulder doesn't hurt nearly as bad as the back of my leg (damn those were painful!).
I never thought I would be someone who liked getting tattoos. I always wanted at least one, but figured I would stop after that. Seeing how I got two my first time, I guess I should have realized that I wouldn't be stopping any time soon. And much to my family's chagrin, I intend to get more. I just love the idea of being able to carry around artwork with me at all times, especially when it has a special meaning. My Hello Kitty bows always remind me of my mom, because she would take me to this little drug store by our house when I was about 3 and would let me pick out Hello Kitty stuff. Little did she know she would start a life-long obsession.
Bella is the first dog I've had that is truly mine. She came into my life during a really awful period of depression and anxiety and I needed her just as much as she needed me. Her little 3 pound self brought me out of the darkness I had been in for months. She always makes me smile and reminds me that there is something in this world that needs me to survive. I will be so happy when I can have her with me at all times!
